happy faced barny went missing
Why is everything so fucking hard sometimes.
IM SICK OF FUCKING STRUGGLING. im sick of fucking trying. Year after year i struggle at school or college of sumthg. I work my ass off to try to be something im not. Just to get good results i end up cutting, not eating or sleeping for weeks,
true, i stress about work more than i probably do work, (half the sleepness nights are due to worrying about it and half due to 4-5am or all nighters working)
i feel like such a fucking mess, i feel like i never actually get anywhere, i never really achieve anything.
and now for the first time in a while i can cry
i still cant cry as much as i want. i cant let go.
and the worst thing is i have this massive fucking heap of work im never guna be able to do and im meant to do as much as i can 2night, 2moro, the next day,
and then i wana see people and have sum fun this weeekend, and then more work and more work.....
it goes on with sleepness nights till my interview on wednesday
and then after that my project due in may 24th...
IM FUCKED
and then i blink, stop crying, see the real world and
ooooooooooh, and a silly picture that doesnt fit
Things will work themselves out, they always do! Especially when you're a cutie like yourself! You'll be all loved up soon enough and look back and realise that all the hard work you put in was worth it!
See you Saturday!