barny

- I eat regular meals and am healthy and i get sick
(my body regular creating allergies to things. flavouring, flour, yeast, dairy, chocolate.... etc, plus grass, dust, animal hair, and anything. since being back in hackney my head has been full of flem... then i get sick because of all of it in my system)

- i forget to eat much, just eating small meals and then i get funny spells, feeling sick and sickness lasting up to 24 hours with constant retching and vomited at times. is retching spelt wretching?

- i try to look at food and you dont interest me. i try to think about eating you and i feel sick. The idea of the tastest ham sandwitch in front of me right now, and i dont want any of to touch my lips.
weirdly i think its also tied to sumthg about the size i eat, the smallest portion doesnt scare me as much, small snack sized things are better.
in truth... i dont want food at all.

(btw sick = feeling like or actually vomiting, aswel as side effects that go with it, headaches feeling dizzy, shaking, panic attacks and more)

my sister

Has had an eating disorder. it makes me soooo SAD AND ANGRY that she CANNOT RECEIVE much HELP for this at all because she is no anorexic or bulumic, instead she goes through phrases of binge eating alot (she is also on a strict diet, which she has created herself from advice not to eat wheat or dairy due to allergies) so after 6 months with nothing but healthy meals, lots of vege and fruit she eats 10 loaves of bread in a night. then loses the weight by exercising alot and sticking to her healthy diet!

if you do not think this is an eating disorder then hear this.
last xmas her weight was at 6 1/2 stone, this xmas 8, and now in the LAST TWO WEEKS, she has put on 3 stone!

She cannot control this, if she could, do docter or anyone else doubting her not think she would?

While at home he have to lock the kitchen as she often gets up in the night, semi asleep and eats, forgettin it in the morning.

when i left my birthday cake in my room at christmas, my sister went into my room (knowing i would have munchies, or fairly good chance) and finished half a cake.

even though i have seen the absolute worst side of my sister and she has made my life hell at times. She would never intend to hurt anyone.

Each time she gets her life on the right track then this becomes an issue again.

She also suffers from ME and has for the last 5 years... even though this is alot better than the past its still there.