barny

disco's BLUE hair is HAWT! and the rest of her of course

I think i finally have to move... its crazy i know, my bed is so comfy and theres all these gorgeous Herseys kisses and Reeses mini peanut butter cups...

btw i found out, im not meant to eat cheese, chocolate, white flour or fatty foods. They makes me illllllll

i feel like a right PLEB at the moment, i missed a wikid night out last night for stupid reasons, although i didnt enjoy what i did at home last night.
and about 11.30pm ish my ex finalyl came round which was really nice. Great to see him again and see that some familiarities are still there. We can still hug and cuddle up a litte, just one step at a time. Have a feeling its going to be two steps back too. but the fact we could all sit round very comfortbly is a massive start.

its annoying cos we have so much in common, ie he's talking bout going to hereford to get his ear pierced again to stretch up. and I really need to go to hereford to see the piercer.
well we'll wait and see what happens

songs that i have been listening to religiously, and who there connected with - not really lyrics related.

Bright eyes - first day of my life (my single survival song!)
Bedouin sound class - when the night feels my song (given to me by almostfamous)
Fenix TX - Threesome (Burning_In_Water and me got this one covered)
John Butler Trio - track 2 (given to me by ex bf, sad song but its beautiful)
Can't help but love the J5 and nelly furtardo song thin line. I my J5

also been listening to alot of Guns n roses recently.

the soundtrack to my life is good the content so jumbled no1 wants to know.

I'm not a grown up, i wonder if being 19 feels like this to everyone. I definately dont look at anything on the same screen anymore. its all like slides, my whole family has one each with there load of problems and then each area of my life, the guys in my life, college, uni.

i keep praying for my family, somehow feeling so responsible for them. theres 4 of us, in 4 different corners of the UK, each a little unstable package.

My sisters finally admitting she has a serious eating disorder and seeking help which is good. Looking at retreats where she wont have access to the kitchen which will help. the last thing thing any of us want is to put her in an eating disorder clinic

i wish things would just go right for my family, i seem to have more luck than the rest and yet i feel like such a failure