i hate it when they change the background. it throws me off for a couple weeks at least.
anyway...
life is really sucky right now.
my girlfriend broke up with me because she found God and seems to think that He told her to be single while she follows His path. she started following the beliefs of this moron (who is that one person i would stab if i could get away with it) that has no idea what he's talking about. i'm not religious at all, and EVEN I know he misquotes the bible and misinterprets meanings. so i feel like complete shit because i'm in love with her and i know she is the one, but her religious hang-ups are keeping us from being together. new year's eve is coming up and she is the only one i want to kiss at midnight
i already hated my job, but now it sucks even more because my hours got cut in half. i think my boss is holding out on us and covering her own ass. but basically she cut the hours waaaay back for the whole damn staff. so i work 15 hours a week, at MINIMUM WAGE. its bad enough that i'm basicaly already working for free since i have no money after bills, but NOW i have Christmas to shop for. i was out of work last year and i couldn't buy ANYTHING for my family, and its like the same damn bullshit is going to happen again.
i'm not sure if i told the story of the house party my band played a few night before halloween, but if i didn't, basically i busted up the house and my dad's truck (no, i hadn't been drinking. it was an accident). the guy gave me a month to fix his house before he reported it to my insurance. so about $130 later (factoring in the gas i used driving to pick up parts and driving to the guys house), i FINALLY fixed it. now there's my dad's truck, which is going to cost a cool $300 that i don't have.
i can't handle this stress. i just need her with me soooo bad. it feels like i'm holding my breath and can't let it out, and like someone is melting my insides. she helped me make it through the hard days because she was something so beautiful in my life.
god i'm so tired.
so lonely.
anyway...
life is really sucky right now.
my girlfriend broke up with me because she found God and seems to think that He told her to be single while she follows His path. she started following the beliefs of this moron (who is that one person i would stab if i could get away with it) that has no idea what he's talking about. i'm not religious at all, and EVEN I know he misquotes the bible and misinterprets meanings. so i feel like complete shit because i'm in love with her and i know she is the one, but her religious hang-ups are keeping us from being together. new year's eve is coming up and she is the only one i want to kiss at midnight
i already hated my job, but now it sucks even more because my hours got cut in half. i think my boss is holding out on us and covering her own ass. but basically she cut the hours waaaay back for the whole damn staff. so i work 15 hours a week, at MINIMUM WAGE. its bad enough that i'm basicaly already working for free since i have no money after bills, but NOW i have Christmas to shop for. i was out of work last year and i couldn't buy ANYTHING for my family, and its like the same damn bullshit is going to happen again.
i'm not sure if i told the story of the house party my band played a few night before halloween, but if i didn't, basically i busted up the house and my dad's truck (no, i hadn't been drinking. it was an accident). the guy gave me a month to fix his house before he reported it to my insurance. so about $130 later (factoring in the gas i used driving to pick up parts and driving to the guys house), i FINALLY fixed it. now there's my dad's truck, which is going to cost a cool $300 that i don't have.
i can't handle this stress. i just need her with me soooo bad. it feels like i'm holding my breath and can't let it out, and like someone is melting my insides. she helped me make it through the hard days because she was something so beautiful in my life.
god i'm so tired.
so lonely.
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thearcanecircle:
I know how you feel. when i found out my ex-wife cheated my world stopped. she was the world. But that was some time ago. Religion seems to be fucking up all kinds of things these day. Makes me glad to be without it.
elision:
Wow. ::hugs:: I feel for you. And, as much as it pisses me off to hear it when I'm in the middle of shit that seems to have ruined my world, Lenox is right, everything's temporary. Just keep going.