banyans

Oh my god, he really is the cutest thing isn't he?! I'm beside myself with anticipation at finally meeting him today, I can't bloody wait! It will definitely be a kiss-fest!

Im afraid my Nanny isn't so easy and I am worried sick about it to be honest. She's not that well, in fact she's in hospital again today having another blood transfusion. She worries about everything and being her favourite, she'll be worried sick about me being pregnant, let alone having to do it all on my own!! Still, there's nothing I can do about it but tell her when I feel the time is right. My mum reckons she should tell her, but I'm not having any of that. It's my baby, and my news and mother should just butt out!

Wow, I wish I had a nice TV - my laptop and TV will become my best friends as time goes on and my current telly is crap. I'm gonna be stuck in the house most of the time in the coming months so I might as well get used to it. A really good TV is on my wishlist.

You're right; dates are for losers. I have now realised that I have put far too much of myself into 'meeting someone' as if living my life on my own and enjoying it with or without a partner is not important. Obviously, given my circumstances now, and the fact that he's left me alone since I told him has given me loads of time to think. I now realise that what is important is to be happy with yourself first and foremost and not just sit and wish there was someone else about. Being a single person doesn't mean you're invalid in comparison to being in a couple and from what I hear, most couples are fucking miserable in their current relationships anyway!

Fucking hell, I'm getting more bitter and twisted by the hour!!

xx

mmm, yes i understand that more than you know.
Batshit crazy. almost every single last one of my exes or any guy who tries to get a sneak at my snatch.

no good.