Who knew shopping could be so difficult!! I needed to buy a bulk load of food from Sainsbury's so I toddled off and on the way I walked past my ex girlfriends sister and father as they were shopping...this was awkward enough and I just skooted through hoping to avoid contact, while in the shop I bumped into her mother!!!! 
at this point I was going insane and thinking I doubt theres anything worse than bumping into the whole of your ex's family. Well I was wrong, as it was pouring down with rain I was waiting at the crossing for the cars to stop so I could cross and I was also enjoying the rain! (I know im a strange lad, its just been so long since ive stood in the rain so I did for a little bit longer before I crossed) anyway as I finally made my way across I almost got run into by...im sure you can guess by now! my ex girlfriend! seeing her again was not a good thing as ive cut off all contact with her for god knows how long now and just to be thrust into this awkward situation was annoying and while I loath to admit it, also very painful!
Not that I broke my rules of communicating with her really as I just said sorry (for nearly having a head on with her) and walked round her, didn't even make eye contact...although courtesy of a van windshield I was brutally aware she was standing there in the rain looking at me as I walked off. A little shocked maybe, im not sure but it was awful to just walk off away from her especially in the rain.
I guess I am starting to wonder, has all this between us made me a little cold and well just changed me in general. Not so long ago I would never have dreamed of walking off and would have maybe become emotionally attached to the moment and pleaded to speak with her. My cousin thinks i've become a machine in many aspects of my life and that i'm just too focused on joining the Navy to get involved with anything else. This is true as while I spent my limited time passing selection I got to meet some nice people and also felt a sense of focus which id never had before, it was nice to know I was on the right track, that everything I did made a difference to my progression and growth.
Anyway thank you for reading
at this point I was going insane and thinking I doubt theres anything worse than bumping into the whole of your ex's family. Well I was wrong, as it was pouring down with rain I was waiting at the crossing for the cars to stop so I could cross and I was also enjoying the rain! (I know im a strange lad, its just been so long since ive stood in the rain so I did for a little bit longer before I crossed) anyway as I finally made my way across I almost got run into by...im sure you can guess by now! my ex girlfriend! seeing her again was not a good thing as ive cut off all contact with her for god knows how long now and just to be thrust into this awkward situation was annoying and while I loath to admit it, also very painful!
Not that I broke my rules of communicating with her really as I just said sorry (for nearly having a head on with her) and walked round her, didn't even make eye contact...although courtesy of a van windshield I was brutally aware she was standing there in the rain looking at me as I walked off. A little shocked maybe, im not sure but it was awful to just walk off away from her especially in the rain.
I guess I am starting to wonder, has all this between us made me a little cold and well just changed me in general. Not so long ago I would never have dreamed of walking off and would have maybe become emotionally attached to the moment and pleaded to speak with her. My cousin thinks i've become a machine in many aspects of my life and that i'm just too focused on joining the Navy to get involved with anything else. This is true as while I spent my limited time passing selection I got to meet some nice people and also felt a sense of focus which id never had before, it was nice to know I was on the right track, that everything I did made a difference to my progression and growth.
Anyway thank you for reading
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These are exciting times for you honey, soooooo much to look forward to
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