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Monday May 28, 2007

May 28, 2007
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I've come to realize that its time for a change. I can't take the way life has been going lately.

The other night I had a breakdown. I just completely lost control. Long story short, for the second night in a row, I saw someone that I couldn't handle seeing. No, not the same person, but still. Beyond that, there were also issues with the general night happening. So I ran away from the situation to what should have been a safe place. Turns out it wasn't. I got slammed with ridicule about how my Utilikilt wasn't a kilt. I blew up at the people, and proceeded to slam down Jack. Its my vice, and I know it is. I didn't stop until I passed out and had drank around a bottle of it. Now I just feel like shit. Beyond from just being hungover, I feel like shit about losing control like that.

All day long I've been going over things because I think that was a breaking point for me. I've come to realize that I genuinely hate where I am right now. My job kicks my ass every night with the only benefit really being the pay.

I found out recently that I still have the option to go to school this year. Kicker is that I'm gonna need to start by July 10th. I think at this point, I have pretty much all the financial stuff taken care of or worked out if I'm gonna go that route.

So, basically, I'm stuck with a decision. Either I need to get a new job or go to school.

I have a few job oppourtunities that I could take. They're hiring at a few bars in town and at Gamestop. I dunno. Its a hard position because ideally, I'd like to just take off the next month to prepare for school.

I suppose my plan is to stick it through the shitty job until the 7th and quit for school, by then I should be able to know if I'm going or not, and if not, I can always get another job.

Its a tough decision and I'll be pondering more about it later, but for now I need to get to gettin if I'm gonna work tonight.

-drew
ARRR!!!
agentmia:
You'll figure it all out and know what to do when the time comes. I was in a similar situation two years ago (almost to the day!) - hated my bar gig - wanted to do something more... finally just decided to make the leap, quit the job, put my shit in a u-haul and moved to colorado.... where I started another really irritating restuaurant job until my grad program started.. but it was totally worth it. Good luck! biggrin
May 30, 2007

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