banbury

As I am driving home I just get to thinking. I am really lonely right now. I know I am just hormonal. But it is just a feeling that is draining me. I look around and so many of my girl friends are happy or not weighed down right now. So guys fawn over them. I just feel big and cumbersome. I know it is all about the confidence you exhume. But truthfully that is a crock of bullshit. Everything is about looks these days. If you are male and said it doesnt matter if you are large because you are having a baby you are lying. It does matter. I can say till I am blue in the face how I am not looking for a father for the baby or anything. But no one will ever believe me. I am not looking for anything really right now. Well thats a lie. I am just wanting someone to hold me out of nowhere just because they want to be close. Just someone to curl up in bed with me and stroke my hair and kiss my forehead. Just someone to even rub my belly right now would be great. Oh well who cares anymore. Really