balou

5-09-05
ITS OFFICIAL I HATE HIM!
As her heart grew hard and cold and decided she doesnt need nor want love anymore



5-08-05
*yawn*
-At work and tired.

-HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL!!!
I love you ma-dress!!! <---So my moms in Arizona and she gets back tonight. So I was going to go to her house and bring her her presents and tell her "Feliz dia de las madres!" And she's so funny 'cause she called me early this morning so I can say Happy Mom day to her.

-Oh where oh where can my little heart be....


-Fuck... I fucking hate when I get drunk and fucking waste so much fucking cash.

-Almost leaving to Vegas then Riverside....

-On thursday I spent the entire day drinking Tecate and watching movies. Then little tipsy Celi decides to text Eden
Eden... horney... Come quick!
He came over after work and I didnt even let him get in the door before I pounced on him!

-"Celi... how the fuck are we suppose to celebrate Cinco De Mayo without a Mexican?"-Jason. No I didnt go out Thursday. I was tired after sex and omlets.

-I truely Love you Jason!!!!!! You are the best, the sweetest, the stinkiest (j/k) Thanks for everything. I know I can always count on you to cheer me up.

-I lost ANOTHER FUCKING pair of glasses. WTF?

-
STARTING A LIFE AS AN ALCOHOLIC=PRICELESS
Me at age 5

-ITS FINAL: Im going
to this school

-FUCK im craving sushi!

-*cough* Yup still with that fucking cough.

-Im so FUCKING COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why why why can't the salesmen let me put on the flippin' heat????????

-GREAT! Too much coffee...

-I ran into my lil sis yesterday downtown for the Cinco De Mayo celebration
NENA:"Ha! I new you would be by the beer stand sister"

-*SNIFF* I want to cry when I hear this song...
"I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyricstop
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah...
Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...

yeah...
yeah...
yeah...
yeah..." "Strange and Beautiful" by Aqualung

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FUCK
Eden....
"When you love somebody you trust them with your heart, and your life. It's the moment when you are able to just let go, and bring down all the walls, and you're left vulnerable."
Why? It's dumb really to argue about stupid things but sometimes you can be so immature. Mind you Im not perfect either.... but fuck Eden.
I try so hard so stop saying that I dont! Yes we both pull back at times... but cut me some slack. And I dont create sscenarios to be angry with you and get upset about. Why dont you open your eyes and see.....?
HMMMMM.....
You know I love you and when you're drunk making the little "Poutie" face you know I cant stay mad at you. I swear Eden... what am I to do with you?
Yes... We will talk afterwork.
And Yes... I will make dinner for you.

-So... Im thinkin since my b-day is comming up im just going to get my fam./friends to give me money for my Chest Piece. Yup... thats what Im doing.

-Hmm. Sucks. Wont be home for my B-day.....

-Im getting tired of my hair...

-Well thats it for now! I love you all. Have a wonderful week!