Things aint seem to be going my way
Consequently i've been drinkin' nearly every day
But its hard to keep chin up when they're knockin' you down
So i've been makin' that all go round.
Drinking bottom shelf bourbon to ease my mind
Seems to work alright 'til closing time
But you know you're gonna come down every night
And there ain't no way you'll ever feel satisfied
Ain't that hard to figure where to begin
It's Friday night so I'm rushing in
Like a fool I get it anywhere I can
Favorite song of late by The Devil Makes Three. Even though i'm not feeling down I sort of feel like i'm being knocked down.
Its silly how a city can create a jaded attitude in your mind, yet, you were never jaded to begin with.
Whats even more silly is that when you move to a new place, with a positive and optimistic outlook on things, people bring it out in you even though you swore it away. I dont quite understand how the human brain works and i guess that's the mystery, but fuck does it piss me off sometimes. There's things i want, and things i know i cant have, but somewhere there has to be some sort of balance. I have learned to understand who i am and how i work, but still, i dont understand how to make myself the person i want to be. I'm tired of having to constantly justify the way that i am and the things that I do. It hurts my head. Do i need to flip my lid and let people know that i'm not a fucking floor mat? Or do i need to just keep things to myself and speak when spoken to? I never thought of myself as an anti-social kind of guy at all, but i definitely did keep to myself when it came to deep or important thought... Which, might I add, got me into a lot of trouble. It seems to me that i can't find the balance it need...
Balls..
Cheers
Baldy.
Consequently i've been drinkin' nearly every day
But its hard to keep chin up when they're knockin' you down
So i've been makin' that all go round.
Drinking bottom shelf bourbon to ease my mind
Seems to work alright 'til closing time
But you know you're gonna come down every night
And there ain't no way you'll ever feel satisfied
Ain't that hard to figure where to begin
It's Friday night so I'm rushing in
Like a fool I get it anywhere I can
Favorite song of late by The Devil Makes Three. Even though i'm not feeling down I sort of feel like i'm being knocked down.
Its silly how a city can create a jaded attitude in your mind, yet, you were never jaded to begin with.
Whats even more silly is that when you move to a new place, with a positive and optimistic outlook on things, people bring it out in you even though you swore it away. I dont quite understand how the human brain works and i guess that's the mystery, but fuck does it piss me off sometimes. There's things i want, and things i know i cant have, but somewhere there has to be some sort of balance. I have learned to understand who i am and how i work, but still, i dont understand how to make myself the person i want to be. I'm tired of having to constantly justify the way that i am and the things that I do. It hurts my head. Do i need to flip my lid and let people know that i'm not a fucking floor mat? Or do i need to just keep things to myself and speak when spoken to? I never thought of myself as an anti-social kind of guy at all, but i definitely did keep to myself when it came to deep or important thought... Which, might I add, got me into a lot of trouble. It seems to me that i can't find the balance it need...
Balls..
Cheers
Baldy.