bakeryman

"Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be someone else?
Are you sick of feeling left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never hat to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life"

This song by Simple Plan really sums up a lot of what is going on in my life right now. I feel so alone right now, and have for a really long time now. I have been in a deep depression as of late. The only bright times lately have been with my friends here on SG. You guys keep me going. I look forward to the events. It's about the only time I socialize as of late. The get togethers are few and far between, but without them I would not have any social interaction. Everyday I go to work then come home and go to my room alone. Sure the rents are here (yes I live in my parents house, someone has to take care of them). I have my own living area but not any real privacy. There is no door to lock.There is nowhere for me to go when I need to get away. I have no close friends that I can call up and say hey lets hang out or go do something. I guess thats why I look forward to seeing you guys. But even then I sometimes feel alone. I guess I have been so for so long thats what I am used to. Sometimes I just want to just run away and get away from it all. I just don't know where I would go. Sometimes it feels like I just need to go and start things over in a new town, state or something along those lines. The only people that I would worry about are the ones downstairs. I am the only one able and willing to help them. I guess I would have a different outlook if I wase'nt under the same roof as them. I guess we all make those little sacrifices for the ones we love. I was going to stay away for a while, but I could not stay away. Here is where I find sanity. I have more friends here than away from this forum. And all I have here are little blurbs here and there. So I guess you guys are stuck with me for awhile. Sorry I had to get all emo and stuff, but I had to let it all out. Now I have to figure out what to do for the next few days. I am off and have no idea what to do. So I guess thats all for now.

Hope everybody has a great turkey day.

Later