Everyone seems hellbent on ruining my life this week. I'm not being melodramatic, either. And of course I'm the horrible person for getting mad. Because everyone else is always right and it's always me who's being wrong or selfish.
I'm seriously thinking of letting go of my "best friend". She's become nuts, She hates Ed, she hates my mom, she hates everything, has an opinion on everything, and now she's asking me to "choose" between her and Ed. Well obviously I'm not going to choose her-- she's not the father of my baby. She sent me four emials over the course of like 10 hours, sent Ed two, and my MOM two and she's just nutty. But I'm scared. Cuz I don't have many female friends.
And I am infuriated and hurt by Ed. He keeps this stable of online girls... at least I just think it's online. I mean, I'm so sorry that I'm seven months pregnant and overweight and I can't dress all cute like I used to and he has to go look elsewhere for girls who'll webcam their boobs and won't ask him to get a job or tell his mom that she's having a granddaughter.
Some people think that kind of stuff, online stuff, isn't a big deal, but I do. I think that's something you need to give up when you move in with someone. Especially someone who's pregnant with your child.
Maybe I'm the one who's nutty. But this time I don't think so. Even though I guess I wish I was, cuz it'd make things alot easier.
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[Edited on Apr 02, 2003]
your best friend does seem a tad bit insane. it's always hard to end friendships, but sometimes it's for the better, esp. in cases like yours. i don't have many female friends either, mainly because most of the girls i meet seem to be in constant competition with each other. however, i actually live like 10 minutes from Morrisville (one of my friends lives in your town!) so if you ever need a chick to hang out with, i'm not too far!
the thing with Ed. i can totally understand how you feel. i would feel the same way. i've learned that guys view that type of stuff totally differently. they see as being ok because even though they get to see some boobs or check out hot webcam chicks, it doesn't affect their love for you. which i understand, but personally, when i'm in that situation, i don't see it like that. all i see is that my boyfriend is thinking some other chick is hotter than me. i've lived with a boyfriend and have found myself in your shoes. it sucks.
if you ever need to vent, i'm here, because lets face it, people can suck sometimes!