bairdduvessa

So I was working last night, with the worst heatburn ever, when my friend Llij (jayeb666 ) called. For the next two hours I didn't get a damn thing done, and I don't care. Sure if one of the Borderlines decides to rat on me I'll be in some shit, but I don't think any of them were up.

(somebody else's) god sometimes I really wonder why I broke up with her (4.5 years ago give or take). She makes me laugh and smile so fucking much. And I miss her. We don't talk as much as we used to, and I moved to the cape, etc etc (i.e. i'm lazy).

I know that if ever she needed me, truely I'd be there, to do whatever I can; even breaking promises I've made to myself. I don't really want to get into it cause, well I don't know most people on this; and she can read this, and sometimes I think some things are best left unsaid.

And as much as it sounds like I'm recrushing on her, I'm not. I am very happy for her, and her boyrfiend (albeit I'm jealous).

But sometimes I get that wierd ass longing for the past.

Eventhough I believe I'd make the same mistakes.

I just hope that she knows how much I do care about her.

Ok I'm done. It's not quite what I wanted to say, but I"m tired.