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Monday Jul 10, 2006

Jul 10, 2006
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I havent masturbated in over a week! My balls are fucking huge right now. I probably should relax but for some reason Ive been refusing. Although maybe I am just waiting for the perfect thing to set me over the limit, Ive come close but I am in control. Yes Control. .If you want pics ask for them! And I will think about it.

I keep taking pics with my camera phone I think I need help. Luckily I get rid of the pics before anybody (Im pretending I hang out with people) sees them.

I STILL THINK PEOPLE SHOULD SEND ME PICS FOR MY PHONE!

OK Im still stuck on the cape, but I am trying to move out of here. I want/need a life.

I had some deep thoughts I wanted to share this week but the migraines are keeping them away.

OH I went kayaking for the first time in two years yesterday. It was wonderful. The lake and pond were covered in blue dragonflies that hovered all around us. The water was so high that the lake and pond were connected.

There is something so wonderful about being on a lake. Something peaceful and Zen. I love it. And strangely I didnt cough the whole time (I am always coughing for some unknown reason).

If you have never tried it, do so, I really recommend it, and I am fat and lazy.

I also came across a list on Wikipedia of banned books around the country. And Ive read so many of them. It was funny as hell. But really it was sad, really sad. Why do you ban books? What purpose does that serve? Especially in this nation.

Seriously it makes me really mad at people-there are so many other things to be angry about but books?

Wheres Waldo was banned in certain places. WHERES WALDO!

Sigh.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Banned_books
OK now I end this with a poem I wrote a while back.

The Bard of Duvessa

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Long Lost Girl With Paper Clips
Once upon a time I met a girl with paper clips in her hair
It was all I could do not to drool or stare
She was in my life but for a moment
Oh but what a moment

Looking back on it
I never knew your name
Or from where you came
And this has always been a shame

I remember at Localbazooka
In 97
We ran into each other on the field
While some future stars played
How I wish you stayed

Your boyfriend was drunk
His neck was like a trees trunk
Still I wanted you then and there
With all those paperclips in your hair

At school we would dun into each other from time to time
Without any reason or rhyme
There were those meeting at my locker
Were you my stalker?

One day Cindi told me about a crush
I thought it was you but was shush
Then suddenly you went away
I never saw you after that day

The other night a memory
Came by chance
While on the phone
I saw your face

And I remembered your thick wavy hair
Light brown and yet so fair
And yes the paper clips in your hair
And I never knew your name.

If by chance you find this
And memories come up to reminisce
Please come and say hello
Be it in rain, shine or snow

There is but one thing I want to know
It was nothing to do with
Crushes long past
Or which way your ship pointed its mast

All I ever want to know
Is the name of my angel
And maybe one quick glance
And the paper clips while we dance
6/29/06

are those little black things that you squeez to open and used to hold paper, paper clips? I never knew the name of them. I know the cool spiraly metal ones were, but I think they share the same name.
Eh who knows.
Message me with the answer please. 6/29/06


VIEW 11 of 11 COMMENTS
shellymc:
have no fear...
i work at an animal hospital! biggrin
Jul 15, 2006
dallas:
word. i also have a killer ass. i mean personality. tongue
Jul 15, 2006

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