bairdduvessa

Well this week was better than last week. At least now we can be civil to each other, but I find that I keep wondering how long it will last? Is the war over, or is it in a lull as both sides tock up ammunition.

Other than that not much else has changes. Ordered some toys because I never grew up out of the 80s
Its sad really. But I keep buying them and comic books andandsigh.

GO BUY THE NEW TOOL ALBUM!

Its raining again, which I am sure is the result of me trying to go on walks to exercise. Damn gods keep messing with me! The other day Im walking the trails near my apt, and theres a pond that the light hitting it... it was the most perfect blue ya know? I was looking forward to it again, but alas those damn gods!
And because of that I keep finding myself in an endless pattern of reflection, self-betterment, creativity and a long ass lull in between. And I think thats what Im in now. Im so unmotivated and lethargic (even for me). I just cant focus on myself, I can get started.

It sucks, every day for nearly two years now Ive envisioned the house that I want. Every day, and yet I do nothing towards obtaining it. Just dreaming over and over again about. Dreaming about the easy ways to obtain it. You know, finish writing those books, go star in that movie. Become a successful hitman.


But thats just it, they are but dreams. And I cant seem to do anything but dream. Somebody help?

Ok so anyway this house that I dream about.

One day

One day.
GO BUY THE NEW TOOL ALBUM!