bailey

i called my bestest friend from college today....havent spoken to her in FAR too long.

shes getting married.


shhhh. its a secret.


the boy she is going to marry is amazing. i actually used to be unable to sleep at night thinking about him. but i dated his best friend so he wouldnt go for me....i set her up with him.

i'm so unbelievably happy for her.

shes the first friend of mine to get married. i thought that i would get jealous. i'm far from it.
we have been through so much together that it makes me excited to know that shes found someone that doesnt make her cry.

shes unbelievable. shes amazing. and every boy she has ever been with has not appreciated everything that she is.


i called her on my way to the city and came very close to crashing my car on sturrow drive.

i cant tell you how amazing the last week has been for me.
i have realized so much.

no longer am i am longing for the past or worried about the future. the past is the past. i threw the letters in the garbage. i cried tears...but not for what was, i cried for fear of what IS not being what IS TO COME.

i am standing on the threshold of the rest of my life. who knows what the fuck will happen, but i'm forging ahead and not looking back.

i love you nadine. congratulations.