bailey

okay, so i made it four days. thats two more than the last two times i said i was going to go sexless for a year.

i really wish people would send me money. i work really fucking hard doing really hard work for shit money. "the reward is working with the children and seeing them grow", while that may one of the best parts of my job, being someone who makes a difference and still struggles is hard. i think about going to work in an office building doing finance or something and making three times as much as i make now STARTING pay.
sigh.
i wish i knew how to make stuff. at least i could supplement my income by having some awesome talented ability to knit scarves like twinkie or something. the best i can do is cross stitch stuff like:



i could sell my used underpants but then i would just have to use the money i made to buy more underpants, so that doesnt seem like much of a profit.
of course, id still be willing to send out my used underpants to anyone who wants to pay for them. a good story for family gatherings.


i also think that im going to make an effort to go out more. be more social. get over my fear of going to bars by myself. say 'yes' when people ask me to dinner or drinks or something. making it perfectly clear, of course, that im not having sex for a year. or four days. whatever.