badluck4life

Well it's friday night and I'm fell like shit . Work sucked this week cause I ran the mixers by my self for the first time in my mentors absence so I went all slow and got yelled at a few times to go faster . I also had sugery on my neck this morning so I am still alittle druged up . I don't want to go into detail about but I wll have a new scar for my colection .
I want to go out tonight but there does'nt seem to be anything going on . Well maybe it's for the better .

lately I have been very troubled my a recent sexualy encounter that has left me with an odd funk (for lack of a better term ). I have this pair of friends that had a kid togather about a year and a half ago and are now broken up but still live togather . I had a crush on the girl before and two weeks ago I acted upon it which turned out well . But now thing just arent the same and I feel really weird when I hang out with them . I know he knows but he has'nt talked with me about it and I would really like to continue with some sort of realationship with he but am too shy to talk with her about it . And we havent had a chance yet . I am debating on turning tail on the situation and just waiting for a better time to try and start things up with her if that is even a possibility . I am looking forward to the get togather in a few weeks and Tuffs prom idea sounds like a blast . I never got to go to a prom my high school did'nt have one . Okay that enough I feel much better .