badhandsome

so...go figure 3 people have died in the past 4 months that i know. one was my grandmother...a.k.a grandmonster. it sounds terrible, but for her sake i'm glad she finally died. she has been praying for the last 50 years for god to take her... "life is so miserable, i've seen all i'm gonna see, etc". my dad used to tell her(before he died), "mom, god isn't gonna take you until you start being nice to people". well who knows what happened there. anyway. a few months ago i went to a funeral for a very good friend of mine, aniko. well wouldn't you fuckin' know it, today i found out that aniko's son, paul, who is also only a year older than me, killed himself today. what the fuck! what the fuck! what the fuck! i'm sad and pissed, and i'm drunk , and i don't know why these things go on the way they do. i'm not looking for any answers because they're aren't any. i miss my friends as it is and to think that there is one less alive sucks. what the fuck did you kill yourself for paul? what the fuck!