badbrains

HATE THIS SHIT

Sleep alone
Wake up alone
"meow, meow" from behind my room's door.
Should i rise and face the day or should i just let it slip like yesterday, like most of my past?
If i could change something, what would i change? Me? You? This place? This mind?
So silly, so sorry, i keep moving in circles, always faster. The speed makes me lose my senses. I can't feel anything.
Where are you, didn't see you when i was spinning around. Now i fell, head was turning, legs shook, i collapsed on a cold ground. Where were you when i was spinning on myself like a child?
Molesting myself with suspects: am i able to (...), no, maybe i'm not. I miss you so much. I'd prefer to miss myself.
What have i done? I'm sleeping alone.
Don't want to sleep alone.
Don't want to wake up alone.
Yesterday i fell asleep watching your picture, still i woke up alone.
There's no relief in being so far, pain cuts my throat - can't breathe.
blood fills my bed - gross!
Gotta keep the engine running. If it stops i'm stuck. Oil the machinery, break the brakes, oil on the road, car slides, crashes, at least i will feel i'm alive, the last second of it.
Black thoughts in black eyes, violence dripping from my skin like august sweat,
don't know who i hate the most: me or the average joe? I'm a misfit, a fuck-up, and i'm so phoney when i'm aloney.
Slept alone last night, and woke up alone. Tonight will be the same, and so tomorrow. I miss you so much, but those nails in my heart always remind me of when your presence was an habit.
Spelling your name in 7 big letters, sculpting them on my forehead, tattoing your name on my tongue, this is all i want to do because your name is the only word i want to come out of my mouth.