I woke up at 12 midnight today (tonight?)
I seem to be plagued with insomnia... only not real insomnia, more like a depressive poser insomnia. It's not so much that I can't sleep normal hours, it is just that I choose not to. I want to be normal... what do I mean by normal, here, I will paint you a picture.
I open my eyed to a brand new day, ready to start my 9-5. My first taste of the morning, is the potent aroma of Folgers. Magically, my blinds open up just as the morning sun pops up to great the earth like a Raisan Bran commercial. It shines through the large bay window in my "overcompensating for something" sized house. I stretch, and smile showing my perfectly unstained teeth. I open up the door to the bathroom, and turn on teh shower, instantly, the room is steamed like a beautiful spa. A ncie relaxing shower, adds to that smile, then hop into my SUV and drive to the office.
Instead, I just wake up, do nothing, and shower only when I need to leave the house. Usually wondering why my life sucks so much. It is a never ending struggle, I can't do this, before I do that, and I cant do that before I do this. So instead of working on this and that at teh same time, I just say fuck it and don't do anything...
I have a job interview today at 3:00 pm.. i wonder if I will stay awake till then, or just say fuck it and sleep through it. Then make up some excuse, and tell everyone that i didnt go because they called and said the position was allready filled. Then we will say how retarted that is that a place would book an interview, then just hire someone before reviewing all applicants. What assholes.
yup
I seem to be plagued with insomnia... only not real insomnia, more like a depressive poser insomnia. It's not so much that I can't sleep normal hours, it is just that I choose not to. I want to be normal... what do I mean by normal, here, I will paint you a picture.
I open my eyed to a brand new day, ready to start my 9-5. My first taste of the morning, is the potent aroma of Folgers. Magically, my blinds open up just as the morning sun pops up to great the earth like a Raisan Bran commercial. It shines through the large bay window in my "overcompensating for something" sized house. I stretch, and smile showing my perfectly unstained teeth. I open up the door to the bathroom, and turn on teh shower, instantly, the room is steamed like a beautiful spa. A ncie relaxing shower, adds to that smile, then hop into my SUV and drive to the office.
Instead, I just wake up, do nothing, and shower only when I need to leave the house. Usually wondering why my life sucks so much. It is a never ending struggle, I can't do this, before I do that, and I cant do that before I do this. So instead of working on this and that at teh same time, I just say fuck it and don't do anything...
I have a job interview today at 3:00 pm.. i wonder if I will stay awake till then, or just say fuck it and sleep through it. Then make up some excuse, and tell everyone that i didnt go because they called and said the position was allready filled. Then we will say how retarted that is that a place would book an interview, then just hire someone before reviewing all applicants. What assholes.
yup
Thanks.