Thursday Nov 20, 2003

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Today, the circle comes around in full. During the summer I was diagnosed with a tumor on my pituitary gland. I didn't tell anyone but my mom until a week before the surgery in early October. My friend Dave flew in from Seattle on a last-minute ticket just to hang with me in the hospital. I had not planned on seeing him until our annual group ski trip (this coming weekend), but he made it. It was great. I felt important, which isn't the emotion I was expecting right before I was anesthitized. I expected doubt, perhaps fear.

The surgery came and went, so did Dave. My recovery was going so well my doctor said that he approved of me going on the ski trip without restrictions. Yes! Then a week ago, as the whole group was getting pumped up about arriving in Denver, Dave tears up his calf muscle and can't ski. What luck.

My first reaction is to stay around the cabin and be there for him. I hope other people feel the same way because I really can't wait to get out there. I hope everything comes together without the pressure of being the only guy to give up a little time for my friend. I think I'm selfish.
bess:
You're not selfish. I think hanging with your friend is the right thing to do and so what if you're the only one who goes to be with him. He came out to hang with you and that rules! Friends like that are awesome. biggrin

I don't know what clubs I go to. We're going to experience new clubs and things. I used to go to City Club, but I feel too old now. The last time I went there, Rob (my exboyfriend who wasn't ex at the time) wore this dog collar with a leash attached, and this girl who was wearing only a vinyl thong and black tape on her nipples grabbed the leash and lap-danced him. It was hysterical, but at the same time, I thought, "She's naked and probably diseased. Does her mother know what she's doing?" And then I died because I never thought about what anyone's mother would think before.

I don't know. We'll probably go play shuffleboard or something. whatever

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