baby_c

so i was in deep thought today. i have a problem. big one to. im leaving to the army. my bf is talking about marriage. i thought about it like him asking me and i dont know. i have a huge lust problem. honestly all my friends are guys. i have one girlfriend.the other day i was with him and he tells me he sees lust in my eyes. what am i supposed to say.im gonna be traveling in the next four years. im gonna be gone. he wants to marry me. he wants me to have his kids. OH MY FUCKIN GOD. im 18. no. but me and him have an awesome relationship. he is the only person i let see through me. everybody else i stay closed on. whst the fuck am i gonna so. i want to be commited but i dont want to be chained down. ill write more tomorrow when my brain isnt scatered. i wish someone could just lay with me and hold me at night. then maybe i wount have anymore nightmares.