b3autifulm3ss

My life is such a mess right now. 2 days ago, I totaled my car from a freak accident that wasn't my fault. There was a big tree branch in the middle of the highway that blew in from the heavy winds that we've been having. I hit the branch, lost control of my car, my hood came up and smashed my windshield, and i pretty much went air borne for a few seconds, and the airbags went off as I hit the cement.

My car is therefore totaled, BUT my insurance company wanted to move my car to thri office (2 hours away) to assess the damage, and see how much I'll get to purchase a new car. So.. To say the least, I am car-less, I have no idea how much money I have to spend on a new car, and I have rug burn on my fingers from the airbag impact.

Ontop of that, I found out that I have a medical condition that I have to live with for the rest of my life. I will not go into details because it's exptremely personal, but it just sucks.

I bawled my eyes out infront of my mom because I have no idea why all of this bad karma is happening to me. It's extremely hard to stay positive when all you want to do is crawl up into a ball, and cry your eyes out. I have to stay positive though. Everything happens for a reason, and I am so thankful to have such a loving mother to take care of me. She is going out of her way to take me to my doctor appointments, helping me look for a car, and consoling me when I'm at my weakest moments.

I love my life, it's just a bit in turmoils right now.

I hope everything works out the way it's supposed to.

BUT.. Everything happens for a reason.

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