b3autifulm3ss

Andy's home and it's not at all what I expected. There's so many people that he wants to see. I haven't even slept over at his place in over a week.

He leaves the 15th and I'm afraid that we won't spend enough time together. It's weird, I'm so nervous around him and I'm scared to text him cuz I'm worried he'll think I'm annoying or nagging.

I really like this guy and I know he likes me for me, but seriously, he's so hard to read and he's so mysterious. I just want to be around him all the time, but I know I can't.

And when he leaves, he's going to be gone for 9 months.. I hope that my heart can take it. I'm already dreading the day, and I don't even know if he wants me to be at the airport when he departs, that's how weird this is. It's not a bad weird, it's just a "I have no idea what to say to you, but I want to talk for hours" type of weird. I get soooo nervous around him, just thinking about being around him makes me nervous.

I just wish I were in him arms right now instead of in my bed, listening to my roommates fight with each other right above me on the second floor.

Tomorrow is another day, and I know he likes me, I just think I'm falling for him faster than he's falling for me. Isn't that the way it always works? I need to try and reign in my feelings and figure out if we can spend a whole day together without it being "weird" or either of us having the need to go hang out with someone else, or leave, or what have you..

Anyways, it's off to bed for now. Don't forget, make love, not war.