Does there come a point where your body knows when you're doing something wrong, and makes you sick? I think that's what's happening to me right now. I hate airing my dirty laundry, but I need some advice..

I'm talking to an amazing man who's overseas right now, and we have been talking since the new year rang in. Well, I promised him that I wouldn't do anything with any other guy while he's gone, and when he comes home, we will more than likely become an "item." But, we technically aren't together. Anyways, I've slept with 2 different guys since the promise, and made out with a guy friend of mine.

Does this make me a bad person? I'm justifying it because we aren't together, but I broke a promise and I think it's eating at me from the inside out. I feel like crap every day, and don't want to do anything. This recent sex-capade happened just last night, alcohol involved, and we've been eyeing each other for awhile now.

I don't want to say what I did was right, but I don't want to say it was totally wrong. I want to tell him so bad, but I know that if I do, I will surely lose him. Maybe I should lose him because of the horrible person I've become, but yet again, I have no idea what to think.

Please help me out. Tears are starting to cloud my eyes, and I'm starting to fall apart...