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"When dealing with people, let us remember we are not dealing with creatures of logic. We are dealing with creatures of emotion, creatures bristling with prejudices and motivated by pride and vanity." - Dale Carnegie

So true!!!!! Had to force myself to be a real bitch to someone last night. I tried to get him to leave me alone in an impersonal manner, didn't work so I had to put on I am a bitch from hell act which I really hate doing it's not me anymore unless some one really deserves it and he actually doesn't. Anyway he doesn't understand me and I don't know why I like him as he is so not the kind of person that I would become a close friend with, he's a typical boys boy whom likes to have his bread buttered on both sides, I usually stay clear from people like that but he is actually sweet and witty occasionally which is why I grew to like interacting with him. Anyway he didn't get what I was trying to say to him, he got all defensive about his apparent intentions towards me which I once again expected but was really annoyed by. I hate it when there is an in-congruency between what people say and what they do, I tend to focus on what they do more however that doesn't make one's word irrelevant. He is trouble and I don't need that right now.

Anyway he was a distraction from Sordid Affair Boy and he worked but now that I am over S.A.B. he really serves no purpose in my life unless he interacts with me as merely an aquaintance and that was the problem, he was interacting with me in a very confused, haphazard way which made me uncomfortable.

I still feel really kak about being a bitch to him, not that I hurt his feelings because I am not one to make assumptions about other peoples feelings, ( I will however make assumptions about their intentions as that is normally quite easy to decipher) I feel kak because that's not who I am in general, not at all.