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Justin my ex join me at Ball Breakers where I was to meet Fancy Face, anyway we get there and guess who the fuck is playing pool, Sordid Affair Boy!!! How fucken hectic is that???Justin, Anton and Fancy Face all togther under one roof and me in the fucken middle. I wanted to scream, I was sooooo confused.

I have always thought that I know what I want, right now I have no fucking clue????? I saw Sordid Affair Boy last night, went home with him and as things started getting hot I freaked the fuck out, told him that I wasn't going to go back to him so easily, asked for my painting and walked out of his house! This was the man that I thought I was going to fucken marry!!!!


And do you want to know fucken why I walked out??? Because Fancy Face told me that he'll give me what I want. A fucken 25 year old that I hardly know who I have almost nothing in common with??? At least fancy face is more sincere. I don't know if I like where this is going with fancy face, I am scared.

Anton is a smug bastard, he so thought that I would just give it up to him, he doesn't fucken know me, my relationship with him changed me. I am a lot harder and I can walk away from someone if they disrespect me. I am completely over him, when he kissed me I felt nothing! At least I know for sure.