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Ok so I am a little nervous about my choice to go back to him however I also realise that I need to be clear and specific about what I want from this. One thing that is really irritating me is that he phones me rather than sms's me. I hate having four conversations a day with someone. I would rather just speak to them telephonically once and then have a few little sms's in between just so we can be reminded of eachother during the day. So when I see him tomorrow night I will explain myself to him.

As for letting the whole world know that we are back together, right now I would rather not, I like the peace and I just want to focus on enjoying us without all the situational drama.

It's all about trusting that I will be ok, I know I will as my love for myself as well as Anton exceeds my need for him. I realised last time around that I can leave whenever I want and that people come and go as do men. He may not be the man that I will settle down with but that's not important to me right now. What is important is that I know that I am going to learn a lot from this relationship because for the first time I am with a man who I perceive as my equal and not some boy toy that I can manipulate.

It's his birthday next week so I trying to come up with what to do for him, a friend of mine may be able to get me a suite at The Michael Angelo Towers for R500 as opposed to R5 000. I may do a little picnic at Moyo in Zoo Lake if that falls through. We'll see.