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So my friend went to go fetch my stuff from Anton's place apparently he looks like he is really in emotional upheaval about the prospect of possibly being a dad and his other ex is forcing him to read all these books on parenting when the results of the paternity tests have not even come back yet. She is cooked!!! He has dated some crazy bitches in his life. He invited me to join him and his friends to go scuba diving in Mocambique at the end of September, I declined. I don't know what his intentions are, whether he just wants to be friends or whether he is attempting to keep the channel of communication open between us so that we can revisit our lust and infatuation with one another when all this drama with this paternity test blows over. I am so confused but I do miss aspects of him and in all truth I am still in love with him. I just want to be his friend right now but it's difficult once you've said I love you and had copious amounts of sex with one another being friends kind of complicates things. More time apart maybe, dunno.

I went out with the french guy last night, he's definately not the right man for me but I am enjoying his affection, I think he is slightly obsessive as well as posessive which kind of freaks me out. He wants to spend every freaking moment with me, I am finding it a little suffocating, it would be fine if I was already in love with him but that is not going to happen for a while. I don't want anything too hectic right now as I really have nothing to offer anyone emotionally.

Anyway later