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I have had the most intense and amazing couple of weeks. I have been travelling around Europe with my brother. It has been a little unsettling because eventhough my brother and myself had good childhoods our relationships with some of our primary caretakers have been somewhat complicated and dysfunctional. It was really weird being confronted by some of the things my brother said or the way he reacted at times and it took me back to some unpleasant childhood memories as well as a lot of introspection. I have a lot to accomplish this year and I need to be more focussed when I return to Johannesburg.

I am currently on my own in the beautiful city of Amsterdam. I must say it is much easier travelling with someone else as it provides a sense of security even if it's all in one's head. I really miss having a partner at times like this, only because European cities like this, as well as Venice should be appreciated with some one you are in love with, it just takes it to a higher level . I am not complaining though as the freedom to eat what I want, go where I want, whenever I want is much needed after two weeks of the cabin fever I experienced being with my brother 24/7. I was still very sad to leave him at the airport today, I had to hide my tears as he isn't comfortable with displays of emotion. Apparently the distaste for emotional outbursts is very typical of people who grew up in Veneto, the region of Italy where my late father was from. Nature vs Nurture bla bla bla....

Life and the world is so amazing, riddled with so much bitter sweet beauty. I am very grateful for what I have.