azraelstarfire

Fuck yeah i`ve been slackin, whatcha gunna do aboot it?

okay now that i`ve got that aggression out lets recap whats been going on while i`ve been denying myself suicide girls. honestly i`ve just been a basketcase who has to go to work all the time, but then goes and skips. i know its not healthy im in the process of working on myself as a whole to be a better person. pretty sure my theme song lately is 'better version of me'- Fiona Apple in the meantime i`ve done a few modeling sets not as many as i would have liked though, i dont have enough GREAT pictures for a decent portfolio. dont think im narcissistic if you knew me in person you would know this. as i sit here in the shirt i wore yesterday/slepted in and some sleep pants i wore two nights ago as well. still in yesterdays makeup and a pencil holding up my ratty unbrushed hair.

my sisters wedding is coming up this weekend, shes been engaged to this guy for 4 years now. they`ve been together for like 6, its crazy how everyone grows up and becomes their own version of adult. its difficult to transition to a happy medium to not lose yourself as a kid versus conforming to the adult world to accomplish adult things.

I will be officially 21 on 8-21-08 its supposed to be a good year i guess my lucky number is 8. good things happen and an 8 appears before my eyes.

and phil and i have recently celebrated out 3 year anniversary we went and pitched a tent on the blue ridge parkway for that night. it was very relaxing and a bit freeing. heres the view from the tent.

yeah i`ll write more later... maybe.