now im officially depressed for the day.
so i had a dream last night i got sick of the blnde and dyedit all green. hmm.. could this be forshadowing? maybe... heather told me yesterday that im boring, and thats why im not a SG. it upset me.. maybe its true.
i just discoverd what my eatting disorder is.... everything i eat i can find something ultimately discusting about it; either while eatting before eatting or after eatting something i will find its flaw that makes it oh so gross. so i either just dont eat it.. ignore that its gross.. or throw up because i`ve lead even my stumache to believe how gross it is......
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drave:
I love eating. Seriously its the best thing in the world..
LoL.. I dont know what id classify that as...hmm..maybe it is a new form lol.. I need to look it up.. lol..
LoL.. I dont know what id classify that as...hmm..maybe it is a new form lol.. I need to look it up.. lol..
azraelstarfire:
well when im stoned i dont think about it i munch out.. does that count as medical?
damn i feel like fucking.
azraelstarfire:
yah nothing.
maynard (one of my kittys) freaked out the other morning.. i carried him with me into the bathroom while philly was taking a shower and he freaked out and a claw went and slit my boobie. my boob is slit like maybe 1cm before the tip of my nipple on down for like 3 inches. its fine now only took like a day or two...
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fine ignore me.
azraelstarfire:
i hate my days of now. and i think part of all this animosity is that my call phone got cut off and my only connection to the outside world right now is myspace.
so dont mind me earlier.. i woke up bitchy.. im just super aggervated that just because its so difficult to get a set up of my own im being rejected all over agian... even when i went to try for modeling when i was in like 10th grade and they were like 'oh well we dont need anymore average people" WTF
if someone could actually...
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if someone could actually...
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im pissed off at blogs and comments and the whole fucking internet world. am i not a person do i not have a soul? do i not have feelings too? the thing of the matter is, is that i see all these fucking people commenting to people and they are the most pathetic comments ever. just because they want to put thier two cents in...
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azraelstarfire:
yah no one fucking cares.
today im sicky pukie... 
dry heaving and all that shit.. i had to leave work early... i puked on my first break andi puked agian on my second break and shortly after my second break in the middle of a phone call i puked in a trash can.. had to put the lady on mute like 3 times and she was all like 'are you...
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dry heaving and all that shit.. i had to leave work early... i puked on my first break andi puked agian on my second break and shortly after my second break in the middle of a phone call i puked in a trash can.. had to put the lady on mute like 3 times and she was all like 'are you... Read More
work still depresses me so i decided to leave early tonight.. which accomplished nothing. except i put up some girlparty pictures on my pictures.. sexy hot bitches drunk.. man we look drunk. and looking at myself in that scarf.. i need to gain a little most definately... 