Exams...
procastination will be the death of me, or just be the reason I fail them all. Lack of motivation is a serious issue at the moment. Everytime I crack the books I can't stay focused for more then 15 min or so.
I can tell you this much for free... I am fustrated with this guy I'm dating. I never wanted anything serious, I do infact have a brain between my ears and made the realization that he is going home in February. I was just enjoying our time spent together, we have fun.
He decided to get all female on me and waste time analyzing what we have. He's aparently all confused and can't seem to decide what direction he wants to go. He made a point of saying that he doesn't want a relationship, because he had promised himself that he wouldn't get into any while traveling. BUT... oh there's a BUT. He doesn't want to stop seeing me, he wants to be with me all the time, he wants me to be his... all that junk.
Gosh... why does he have to make it so difficult?
I never brought anything up, I was enjoying life as it was. I quite liked having this amazingly hot boy swoon over me and shit his friends and I get along famously... it was good.
Now it's all full of confusion and stress, and worry. And I'm irritated about it.
If I wasn't so god damned attracted to him I'd call it quits... but he's so addictive. Just a few more weeks, that's all I need... Then I'm off to NZ and home to Canada, I'll be gone for a month... I think this will make it easier.
My throat is sore again... how fustrating is that? I just got over a nasty throat infection... on antibiotics and all.. I think it's come back.
My body has pretty much gone on strike, there's always something wrong. Missing mommy's cooking I'm sure!
procastination will be the death of me, or just be the reason I fail them all. Lack of motivation is a serious issue at the moment. Everytime I crack the books I can't stay focused for more then 15 min or so.
I can tell you this much for free... I am fustrated with this guy I'm dating. I never wanted anything serious, I do infact have a brain between my ears and made the realization that he is going home in February. I was just enjoying our time spent together, we have fun.
He decided to get all female on me and waste time analyzing what we have. He's aparently all confused and can't seem to decide what direction he wants to go. He made a point of saying that he doesn't want a relationship, because he had promised himself that he wouldn't get into any while traveling. BUT... oh there's a BUT. He doesn't want to stop seeing me, he wants to be with me all the time, he wants me to be his... all that junk.
Gosh... why does he have to make it so difficult?
I never brought anything up, I was enjoying life as it was. I quite liked having this amazingly hot boy swoon over me and shit his friends and I get along famously... it was good.
Now it's all full of confusion and stress, and worry. And I'm irritated about it.
If I wasn't so god damned attracted to him I'd call it quits... but he's so addictive. Just a few more weeks, that's all I need... Then I'm off to NZ and home to Canada, I'll be gone for a month... I think this will make it easier.
My throat is sore again... how fustrating is that? I just got over a nasty throat infection... on antibiotics and all.. I think it's come back.
My body has pretty much gone on strike, there's always something wrong. Missing mommy's cooking I'm sure!
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i wish i had a boy that would swoon over me
[Edited on Nov 16, 2004 11:54AM]
brinny