azkadellia

So I've made some big girl decisions. I'm cutting my hours at work. I'm going to sell Beauticontrol, and I aim to be out of Chow Hound by the end of January. I'm going down to four days a week, and if Ryan wants to remove me from the store (provided he doesn't fire me on Thursday) to make biscuits instead, so long as I'm paid for 30 hours, that's fine by me. But I need to take more care of myself, and I can't do that with the way my life is right now.

I called Ryan yesterday to tell him I wasn't coming in today. There will be hell to pay, but I can't worry about tomorrow's pain tonight (or rather Thursday's pain tonight). I spent today making myself happy, and deciding what I want from my life at this very moment. I went riding, and I got a massage, and I started paying attention to all the shit that gets spewed at the monthly beauticontrol meetings.

Had my first serious horse related injury today. amber took the barrel out with her shoulder, and while I was trying to make sure the barrel didn't hit her, I took a 10 gallon bucket filled with 5 lbs of dirt to my knee. caught it just right that it knocked my knee cap out of place. It's back in, thanks to my lovely chiropractor, and now I'm icing the bitch down. I'm back at the barn tomorrow. I seriously thought I was going to puke though, when it happened. Holy shit, it hurt so damn bad. Not comfortable now, but my stomach contents aren't doubling back up on me.

So everytime Deb talks to someone about Lacey, she informs them that the foal already has a buyer, if they don't want it. I love it. She's had a couple more people come look at her, who aren't sure because of the foal. I told deb I'd put a deposit down on it, so long as I get my money back if the foal is stillborn, injured, or deemed otherwise unfit by a vet of my choice. So... yeah.... Here's to hoping Lacey stays at the barn so I can get my foal.

So I guess that's where I'm at right now. Day by day, but it's going to get better. Because that's what I want.