azkadellia

I'm tired, I'm in pain, and I feel frustrated and hurt. I'm tired of defending myself and my anything and everything to people who've never met me. I should not ask for help from outsiders, so few of them actually care and want kindness for you. I should keep to my pack, and seek answers that I need from a far less aggressive source. One that cannot say, "that could not have happened," or insuinates that you're lying with every word they speak. I came seeking comfort and friendship, and while some have offered that, far more have pointed out how different I am from the rest of them. One in particular seems to take pleasure in causing me pain and torments me. I should never have opened myself to such an attack. It was stupid. And I am too stubborn to leave. walking away is weakness, and I refuse to be so. And I am suppose to be an Alpha. Alphas have sense of pride and dignity, but are smart enough to withdrawal from battle when the battle cannot be won. I am not that. Though I have little left to fight with. She has an arsenal, and I am but one lone wolf on the hillside. An easy target.