ayla

I'm halfway expecting to get a call from the porn shop tomorrow, saying that a customer complained about the kind of music playing.

Disturbed is going to get me in soooo much trouble. *tee hee!*

So a big name law firm in Novato called me back today. I applied via Monster.com well over a month ago, and just got the call....at Marisa's. I had forgotten all about them. So I'm giving them a ringy dingy tomorrow, to see what's up. Marisa demands I do so, and hell, who am I to say no? Heh, but no, it's a law firm, a real 9 to 5 job. And though I just got these two jobs...it's kinda pissing me off that I don't have a set schedule for either place. It's whoever can get me first. I kinda don't like that. But maybe I can still keep one of the jobs as a weekend job, should the law firm callback go well. Still bringing in the dough.

I think I should clear something up now. And I could probably get in a bit of trouble for this, but I feel it should be said. So if a couple of you want to rip into me for posting this, well, then go ahead, but it won't change anything.

I'm not capable of hating anyone, anywhere, ever. I can hate things they say and do...but it's not humanly possible for me to ever hate a person, no matter how much they anger me. I'll dissassociate with them, I'll push them away until either one of us are more ready to deal with the other, I'll scream at them until I'm blue in the face.

But I can never hate.

It's genetically impossible. I'd rather die than hate someone. Because then they might be upset at the thought that I hate them. And I'd rather see someone happy.