There are a few things I've been thinking about today. Time to get them off my chest....theoretically speaking.
- I'm actually proud of who I am and what all I've accomplished in my life. At nearly 21 years old, I've endured a kind of life that would normally lead to a complete breakdown of the psyche and would leave me in a mental facility for the rest of my days. I've been tormented, picked on, passed between parents, abandoned, neglected, beaten within an inch of my life and sexually abused. I've moved almost 30 times already, with no signs of ever slowing down. I never finished high school, and was forced to drop out of college. I'm sure there is a lot more I can list, but at the moment, I feel I've gotten some of the point across, if not all. I've heard and seen my friends go through less and break down quicker under lesser circumstances. How is it that I've gone through more shit than anyone I know, and remain standing in one piece? I'd like to say that I'm a strong person, but I don't think that's the case. I think it's because I'm too damn stubborn to give up, lay down, and let everyone walk all over me. There are a few things I've done in my life that I can look back on and be proud of the fact that I did them. For a couple of months there, I had my own apartment. True, it didn't last long and I ended up having to leave, but at least I tried, and I'm proud of that. I managed to finish a full year of college and it got me enough exposure to writing that I'm writing for an online magazine. I've interviewed 12 Stones, a band signed to Wind Up Records and established a connection to that label. I've done press work for AFI and have met all four members, thanks to one of my friends. I made it out of the South Bay finally. Granted, this wasn't exactly by choice, but rather by instant necessity, but I managed to do it and I'm lucky I have friends to fall back on in my hardest times. And at least I'm trying to get my own place and two jobs and make it on my own for once, without falling back on anyone. Yes, there are people my age that are very much better off than I am. But for someone who was raised the way I was, I think I turned out pretty damn good.
- I am more than proud that I'm modeling for this site. A couple of days ago, someone I know, someone that was up until that point every close to me decided to show their true colors and proved that they've never supported me in this endeavour. According to them, "taking your clothes off for a porn site doesn't count as modeling." Ever since my application was accepted last August and I set up and did my shoot, I have been very excited to be a part of this and to be able to say that I am a Suicide Girl. 1 out of 350 +, out of nearly probably 5,000 applicants a month. I didn't appreciate that they faked support for me from December until now. Keep in mind, this person wants to break into modeling, and they're not getting much of a start, period. I didn't appreciate that they tried to throw my accomplishments in my face. It made me appreciate this site, the girls, and the members even more. I know that I don't really fit the "SG image". I'm far from that. I'm the last type of girl you'd expect to model for this site. But since joining in February, I have recieved nothing but the utmost support from everyone here, and believe it or not, some of my family! I truely feel that in 10 years, I can look back on this and say that this is something I'm proud to have done and would do again in a heartbeat. And I refuse to let some jealous bitch get the best of me.
This is a little more of who I am. Take it as you like, but take it in full and appreciate it.
Not many people are as up front as this.
- I'm actually proud of who I am and what all I've accomplished in my life. At nearly 21 years old, I've endured a kind of life that would normally lead to a complete breakdown of the psyche and would leave me in a mental facility for the rest of my days. I've been tormented, picked on, passed between parents, abandoned, neglected, beaten within an inch of my life and sexually abused. I've moved almost 30 times already, with no signs of ever slowing down. I never finished high school, and was forced to drop out of college. I'm sure there is a lot more I can list, but at the moment, I feel I've gotten some of the point across, if not all. I've heard and seen my friends go through less and break down quicker under lesser circumstances. How is it that I've gone through more shit than anyone I know, and remain standing in one piece? I'd like to say that I'm a strong person, but I don't think that's the case. I think it's because I'm too damn stubborn to give up, lay down, and let everyone walk all over me. There are a few things I've done in my life that I can look back on and be proud of the fact that I did them. For a couple of months there, I had my own apartment. True, it didn't last long and I ended up having to leave, but at least I tried, and I'm proud of that. I managed to finish a full year of college and it got me enough exposure to writing that I'm writing for an online magazine. I've interviewed 12 Stones, a band signed to Wind Up Records and established a connection to that label. I've done press work for AFI and have met all four members, thanks to one of my friends. I made it out of the South Bay finally. Granted, this wasn't exactly by choice, but rather by instant necessity, but I managed to do it and I'm lucky I have friends to fall back on in my hardest times. And at least I'm trying to get my own place and two jobs and make it on my own for once, without falling back on anyone. Yes, there are people my age that are very much better off than I am. But for someone who was raised the way I was, I think I turned out pretty damn good.
- I am more than proud that I'm modeling for this site. A couple of days ago, someone I know, someone that was up until that point every close to me decided to show their true colors and proved that they've never supported me in this endeavour. According to them, "taking your clothes off for a porn site doesn't count as modeling." Ever since my application was accepted last August and I set up and did my shoot, I have been very excited to be a part of this and to be able to say that I am a Suicide Girl. 1 out of 350 +, out of nearly probably 5,000 applicants a month. I didn't appreciate that they faked support for me from December until now. Keep in mind, this person wants to break into modeling, and they're not getting much of a start, period. I didn't appreciate that they tried to throw my accomplishments in my face. It made me appreciate this site, the girls, and the members even more. I know that I don't really fit the "SG image". I'm far from that. I'm the last type of girl you'd expect to model for this site. But since joining in February, I have recieved nothing but the utmost support from everyone here, and believe it or not, some of my family! I truely feel that in 10 years, I can look back on this and say that this is something I'm proud to have done and would do again in a heartbeat. And I refuse to let some jealous bitch get the best of me.
This is a little more of who I am. Take it as you like, but take it in full and appreciate it.
Not many people are as up front as this.
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and fuck that friend heh.
psst yeah im with steve but you definitely knew that
i would like fantasies 2 and three with a side order of number one from the regular lay
if all else fails one can always be a stubborn ass and refuse to just take it... that always gets to them