aydanstorm

Ok. This is going to sound totally stupid and weird.

I don't know why but the other day I was visited by the urge to buy a pack of clove cigarettes. Now, I'm not even a smoker but my friend said they are really good. Almost like pot. As I'm not allowed to smoke the herb, I thought this was a kind of cool thing. Also, she gave me one a couple of years ago and I didn't smoke it but I loved the way it smelled and tasted (I licked it...lol) Anyway. So yeah. I smoked one with my husband who is a smoker (even though he told me he quit..... ) yesterday and now I'm hooked. How stupid is that? I've always been adamant about how much I hate smoking/smokers and now I'm addicted. I KNEW this was going to happen. Whenever I get addicted to something it starts SO quickly. I had tried smoking regular cigarettes before but the taste was too sharp and it felt like it was burning my insides but this is so much better. And...for some strange reason, I get high off it. Weird, no? Anyway...this is all about how I'm craving a cig right now even though I just smoked one like 20 minutes ago. Plus, I have panic attacks and it kind of calms me...until I start craving again then I get all shaky and fidgety. This is SOOO ridiculous because I just started yesterday. wtf, mate? Is this normal? Sorry this is so random but I'm still feeling fuzzy from the last one.