ayastigi

So I got off work and got home like 30 minutes ago. It sucks because it's my favorite kind of night, its raining with a lot of thunder and lightning, and I'm just really down tonight and can't enjoy it. I've been working in bars for the past four years and I swear I become more jaded with each night I spend there. Its like on one hand its fun and I love it, on the other hand I get to see human nature at its worst. It makes you not want to date or even be involved with someone at times just watching all the scenarios that play out there. I really sit here and just think sometimes after nights like tonight if people are actually "in love" anymore at all. I mean you say you are completely in love with someone and five shots later they are all over the person three bar stools down. I wish at times I could take a fucking time machine back and see if it was always like this or if people really did have that Romeo and Juliet kind of love at some point. Is it society and all the insane changes or just human nature??? Guess I really am bitter tonight, I'm going to stop now before this gets just retarded, not that it isn't already. Night everyone, I'm off to read some Harry Potter and pass the fuck out!!!!!