awkward

Sometimes it is better to
embrace solitude, then seek
ways to avoid it.

So many things have changed
in a short amount of time.

I can't see things clearly.

And, it's another rainy day.

I miss a lot of things.
I miss a lot of people.

I miss the things I have yet to lose.
And, of course I miss the
things I have lost.

Why do people see me as
self-destructive? I live being
watched as if my next move
will be the one that ends it.