Talked to the ex till 6am this morning and ended up crying before he went offline and crying myself to sleep.
Why do I beat myself up over things like this? ... although one thing he said just made me break down into hysterics
It made it hit home what had happened to me a few months ago and made me think what could have been >.<
*sigh* Although talking it through with him lifted a weight off me I am glad I have been able to tell him what I have gone through and what I may have to go through because of it. He also shared his problem too and only can wish I could help him but alsa I can't do nothing but be there for him and only hope he will be there for me to talk to with mine. It was one thing we could do before we started dating and what actually drew us closer. We used to talk for hours about stuff happening in our lives and having a giggle together. Then we lost contact. Then when we found each other again we could not keep our feelings for each other held back no more and we had 6 great months together. What I would give for those 6 months again >.<
I am glad he shared something with me that no one else knows just means were are talking the way we used to before and it makes me happy.
I miss him when he isn't around not in the bf sense in the friend sense ... he is a great friend and always will be in my eyes ... even though what happened to the relationship I still can say a bad thing about him weird or what ... most hate their ex's with a vengeance but I can't hate him ... although he is the only ex I don't hate.. I can't hate what I love really guess thats my whole problem When I think about it he was the only guy I actually really deeply loved ... esp when i sit and think of the other relationships and the way they turned out
well gonna go and dwell on my thoughts and pick up the pieces
to all
Edit: grrr need 29.99 to purchase an online code for guild wars as its my mates game and he took it with him ... sucks not having a card anyone wanna buy me one for my birthday? lol j/k *well wishful thinking not that anyone will*
although cheaper buying the game through my wishlist on amazon lol
Why do I beat myself up over things like this? ... although one thing he said just made me break down into hysterics
It made it hit home what had happened to me a few months ago and made me think what could have been >.<
*sigh* Although talking it through with him lifted a weight off me I am glad I have been able to tell him what I have gone through and what I may have to go through because of it. He also shared his problem too and only can wish I could help him but alsa I can't do nothing but be there for him and only hope he will be there for me to talk to with mine. It was one thing we could do before we started dating and what actually drew us closer. We used to talk for hours about stuff happening in our lives and having a giggle together. Then we lost contact. Then when we found each other again we could not keep our feelings for each other held back no more and we had 6 great months together. What I would give for those 6 months again >.<
I am glad he shared something with me that no one else knows just means were are talking the way we used to before and it makes me happy.
I miss him when he isn't around not in the bf sense in the friend sense ... he is a great friend and always will be in my eyes ... even though what happened to the relationship I still can say a bad thing about him weird or what ... most hate their ex's with a vengeance but I can't hate him ... although he is the only ex I don't hate.. I can't hate what I love really guess thats my whole problem
When I think about it he was the only guy I actually really deeply loved ... esp when i sit and think of the other relationships and the way they turned out
well gonna go and dwell on my thoughts and pick up the pieces
to all
Edit: grrr need 29.99 to purchase an online code for guild wars as its my mates game and he took it with him ... sucks not having a card
anyone wanna buy me one for my birthday? lol j/k *well wishful thinking not that anyone will*
although cheaper buying the game through my wishlist on amazon lol
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*hug*
dont worry, things will get better