Sunday Dec 31, 2006

0
I know it has not even been 3 hours since my last blog, but jesus,

I AM MY OWN PERSON. I LOVE ME. Really, plus I'm quite emo about being here without my friends. I know this is what I "have" to do to make things better but what a drag. I could be having fun with all you beautiful people. And about me being completely happy when I am drunk SO WHAT? I am pretty sure those ladies who I fancy about have a problem, they would tell me because you have a mind of your own. I won't stop loving girls, as I won't stop loving guys, I guess I'm two spirited as they say in the cree culture. But seriously. I cannot stop how I feel. Yes, I am going to cut down on my drinking, but I can't hide my feelings. Thats too wrong and not me. Yeah, I can be a bit overwhelming at times, but really, thats who I am dammit. I can't change that. For all of you out there, a new years resolution from me to you is to be open with me. Tell me if I make you uncomfortable. Or I will not feel bad for loving you up, and I will not apologize.
Yours truly,

Your friendly neighborhood

Awasis
VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
calixte:
Hey beautiful... You must know that I love you very much and would and will always be honest if you ever make me uncomfortable. I love the girly make outs, the ones that we have with all the pretty ladies we have the privaledge of knowing in our lives, and the quiet ones between good friends. I am always up for kisses and cuddles with you sweetness, you are one of my very best friends and I treasure the closeness. The only reasonI hesitate when I'm near you is I don't want to make you uncomfortable. I understand about needing to do things to fix things in your life. That's why I am out here in Veg, alone, missing you guys more often then I even let you know. Because I want to be more and have more in my life than just the partying and the drinking... becuase I don't want to jsut be a booty call... Because I was losing respect for myself because of the choices I had made. Because I am always ending up hurt and I needed to get out and figure out why so I can be happy again. Learning to balance seems to be the key (one I have difficulty mastering most of the time). Awasis, you are crazy, and fun, and a little spirited when you get drunk, but we all love you, and I for one wish I had more of your spirit and your big wonderful heart becuase you inspire me - all the time. You live life, you seem unafraid of everything that scares me... and you are one of those special people in my life who reached out to me, and pulled me out of my quiet little shell, and I will love you forever for that.

I'll call you later this week and we can hoepfully plan some time to just chill and chat. And I have the book you need. kiss kiss kiss kiss
freakpirate:
Oh darling. I have never, in the entire time I've known you, felt uncomfortable in your presence. I have always had a blast hanging out with you. I think you're more full of life and energy than anyone else I know and as lame as it may sound it really is fucking contagious. I know that I can't help but feel a little lifted when you're around.

Do what you need to do, but most importantly do what makes you happy.

More Blogs