avidity

well...i've made the decision.

i'm moving home.

i can't get a job here that pays anything near what i was making before. i mean really that is the whole reason i moved here, because my job was paying me oodles for the area. but now.....i'm lucky to get 10 bucks an hour, even with my resume. not to brag but i have held a lot of management type jobs, and have the experience. there are a couple jobs that are paying what i was making, but apparently because i'm not fluent in spanish i'm fucked. i thought i lived in america, but i guess not. that really pisses me off, but i can't do anything about it.

so i am going to give notice on my place that i'll be out by dec 1st, and hoping to make the drive home sometime in dec or jan. in the meantime, i'm going to stay with scott. he has his house now and an extra bedroom.

it's hard. i've decided to sell most of my stuff, instead of incurring the expense of getting everything home. it feels weird, and like a huge step back, but in the end i think it's going to make for a better future. it's all very difficult, but i'm limited in choices at this point.

so that's what i have right now. except for the fact that i wish a certain boy would stop acting like a douchebag because it's tearing me apart.

though my friends help me smile...