aveirarayne

Has officially decided, I need to fucking decorate. Lived here almost a year and it doesnt feel homey because its not painted and decorated. Theres pics, theres `decor`, but its not `decorated`. Ugh. I need paint, and pictures (other then of family of course), and carpets (I have all ugly ass tile and hardwood), and plants (fake because I kill live ones QQ), and mirrors (cuz I love them), and candles, and shelves, and border (wallpaper costs to much to take off). Im DYING without being able to decorate. Half tempted to go back to my teen ways and start painting the fucking walls with nail polish.

Im doing a college course for interior decorating for this reason. Reading about different decorating styles, different window and floors types is making it worse. I need to make curtains, and slip covers, and ugh. AGONY I tell you.

Now thats not to say I havent somewhat decorated. I got pics up, and a fake tree, and blah blah. But its all white. I HATE white. Its bland, neutral, cold. I want it to feel like my home instead of a borrowed place. Which it is, but still. And the not having carpet is driving me nuts.

Ugh. So annoyed. Fucking money. I blame Christmas, although thats not entirely the problem. Being left with debt from your gay ass ex because hes a douche started it. Fucker.