Havent blogged in a few days, so figure I might as well. And no, no new pics yet 
This weekend was fucking horrible. In an attempt to discuss the lack of flame and kink in my sex life with my boyfriend, I pissed him off. Probably the way I worded it all but still, if it didnt get to this point after months of me trying to suggest and hint shit, it wouldnt have happened. So anyways, I misinterrupreted (I can never spell that) his going to bed and not speaking to me, as him giving up, and began discussing D/s and poly with a good friend of mine on FB. BIG mistake apparently.
After sleeping on the floor in my daughters room so as to not have to sleep in the same bed, I got woken up to him telling me he saw what we said to each other, and he didnt know if it was worth it to try to fix it. At that point, I couldnt even cry because I didnt care anymore. I missed my collar, missed being someones sex toy, and pretty much gave up.
Somehow between all that, we managed to work it all out and were still together. Not collared, hes as vanilla as they come, which is depressing but obviously because I love him, Im going to have to deal with. Hes also not poly, and wont be, so Im fucked in that area as well. But whatever. Were happy again which is good.
Other then discovering I dont get my daughter for the Santa Claus Parade AGAIN this year, any Christmas parties AGAIN this year, or for Christmas AGAIN this year because of my douche ex, life is good
Trying t ofigure out a day to do my set when my hubby aint here and neither are my kids, and the photographer has time appears to be harder then I thought though lol.
This weekend was fucking horrible. In an attempt to discuss the lack of flame and kink in my sex life with my boyfriend, I pissed him off. Probably the way I worded it all but still, if it didnt get to this point after months of me trying to suggest and hint shit, it wouldnt have happened. So anyways, I misinterrupreted (I can never spell that) his going to bed and not speaking to me, as him giving up, and began discussing D/s and poly with a good friend of mine on FB. BIG mistake apparently.
After sleeping on the floor in my daughters room so as to not have to sleep in the same bed, I got woken up to him telling me he saw what we said to each other, and he didnt know if it was worth it to try to fix it. At that point, I couldnt even cry because I didnt care anymore. I missed my collar, missed being someones sex toy, and pretty much gave up.
Somehow between all that, we managed to work it all out and were still together. Not collared, hes as vanilla as they come, which is depressing but obviously because I love him, Im going to have to deal with. Hes also not poly, and wont be, so Im fucked in that area as well. But whatever. Were happy again which is good.
Other then discovering I dont get my daughter for the Santa Claus Parade AGAIN this year, any Christmas parties AGAIN this year, or for Christmas AGAIN this year because of my douche ex, life is good
Trying t ofigure out a day to do my set when my hubby aint here and neither are my kids, and the photographer has time appears to be harder then I thought though lol.
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Hopefully he comes around or you adjust, who knows.
you really need to find out what he likes and then compromise, it maybe difficult for him to understand where your coming from, but if you don't find some common ground and work from there........welll......