avant_garde

I don't think you really realize how much you miss the company of some one until there not around. I'm really missing Alex, He comes home tomorrow night and I cant wait!!!!

I'm really tired. Ive been going to bar tending school for two days now, and its really fun!

I went to dinner with my brother a Duffy's it was great. I lost my study cards and I think they may have fallen out of my purse there. Bummer but hey at least it will help me memorize them better b.c ill be writing them down again. WOW I didn't relies it was already 10.

I wish I could go crawl in to Alex's arms and sleep. Its so comfy there. The longer hes gone the more I'm bummed.

I'm actually in a bad mood. I'm terrified that I wont find a job and I'm starting to get anxiety about it! I feel like life is shitty, I still want to move and get out of were I live and away from that are. As much as I love some of the people there I'm ready for something new. My mind is all over the place and its hard for me to concentrate for one thing. I'm a little depressed. Something that I hate admitting. I think depression is dumb and something that I'm in full control of but then I get in moods like this and i just want to give up. Yet I feel like I still need to smile and make sure that every one knows that I'm strong and not worried and that no matter what ill make things work. I'm going to Alex's house to lay in his bed and fall asleep. I really need a hug right now.