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I'm thinking of going on hormones again. I'll be going back into therapy soon to work out whether I should or shouldn't.

I miss the whole thing, especially how estrogen made me feel. And I gave it up for the worst reason possible — for someone else's sake.

Regardless of whether I start HRT again, I think I'm going to start laser hair removal again, now that I'm making more money than I was when I tried it before. I'm also considering getting a trachea shave at some point, maybe my next tax return, from a doctor that specializes in trans surgeries, who is based in Atlanta. I'd like to get that done regardless of my hormone situation; my least favourite part of my body is probably the outward appearance of my throat. Ugh. Totally nasty. I'll be glad to see it reshaped and smoothened.

Assuming I start up with HRT again, I'm going to try to do it as close to my way as possible. I'll find a doctor that'll prescribe what I want instead of what the doctor wants. Last time the prescribing doctor was a urologist, and wouldn't prescibe me estradiol or an androgen blocker despite my pleas; he prescribed me diethylstilbestrol (DES) and provera (progesterone) but nothing more. I wanted more. This time, if I go back to HRT, I'm going to do it right.

I still don't know what I'll do about the hair thing, though, or even what my options are for hair. I guess I'll jump off the east side of that bridge when I come to it.