new stuff kinda bothers me..
why do i need 3 pics instead of one..if i already have pics in my folder..this baffles me. Some of this stuff just seems sorta bulky and unneed, just my 2 bits.

I was soooo tired and depressed last night that I didnt even work out..Tonight I am going xmas shopping so no working out tonite too..meh..but Im doing good anyhow.

I dont really have any "news" per se..lots of job offers. and that is cool..but some of these sights are a bit far out for me..and Im very hesistant of things that seem too good to be true..Im not up for being in a body bag.

I did get an offer to be a sex worker in a huge house for traveling men and women, I would only work weekends and I would only service women..yeah..not sure how i feel about that.

I am very happy with my life, did i tell you that..yeah i did-
Here's the thing, guys..I cant be happy with me..does that make sense. I was raised to be muble, to be modest, and in my warped head, modesty and humility bread lack of self confidence and self love..as a kid a took being humble as self hate..if that makes sense..So now as an adult I am doing my best to get out of that..Ima confident person on my own-but it comes to compairing myself to others, the others always win.

Im worried about my kid brother..He has these huge anger issues that he learned from my dad, combined with violent streaks, that e watched my dad display-so my mom told me this weekend that he has ripped 2 doors of their hinges and that he punched a hole in his wall a huge hole..now mind you he is a twig..so its like hulk strength..it comes from rage..my dad has never addressed his issues so my brother has no one male to guide him. I spoke to Brian about it last night, and Brian said over Christmas he is gonna take him out and talk to him one of the days we are there, he said he delt with it alot when he was younger, and that part of it is your testosterone producing more, ad that you have to learn to keep in check..

So..any girls want to go on a date this weekend..I need the girl love bad..

Keep me company today..
I remembered to wear deoderant.
Oh..before i forget..I was too tired to watch the Eagles game last night..so I went to be wearing my litttle Eagels t shirt and Eagles panties to cheer them on in my slumber, I woke up to my alarm radio, and they were going over the stats of last nights game..What can I say Jeff Garcia Shocked the shit out of me last night..Sometimes I laugh thinking of what would have happened if TO stayed in Philly and McNabb got hurt, It would be the 49ers all over again.
Take care