avalon13chase

so today is halloween..the last day of this avatar. I will hopefull have a new one soon,or i'll just put up an oldie.
I put on a really nice outfit today, sexy panties and bra, black knee hi heeled boots..good jewlery. I feel pretty hot. it helps the mood I suppose. I went to the library last night, got some cook books and stuff. I need to keep my head distracted. I feel like I am getting out of this funk slowly.
So girlie that I kissed a few weekends back is done talking to me..We had this talk last night and there are all these limitations that her BF put on her..like she cant hang out with anyone with out her, he talks to her while we talk on the phone, and they fight all the fucking time. I have a good helthy relationship-i dont need that drama.
That brings me back to the need for girlie snuggles and girlie kisses..any takers.
I feel asleep last night after watching two sundays worth of Adult Swim. I think I may change my cats name to hand banana..
I'm building an empire in my mind..I am taking over the world in my head. I know more than most, put I keep it in my pocket,the more I show, the higher the expectation.
I was in the worst fucking mood yesterday. I really wanted to punch some shit. It made me just want to be alone..so I masterbated, i felt better.
My biggest fear is never being good enough..
The biggest truth is, the only one I am not good enough for is me.
I love you
AC